One of my greatest strength is my mind. I pride myself on taking a situation and running multiple scenarios in a matter of seconds in order to make decisions or solve a problem. I can be logical which is very efficient for me.
However, one of the downsides is that I ruminate. This is something I do quite frequently when a situation is out of my control or I can’t immediately solve a problem – Yes, I know it’s a bad habit.
Yesterday was one of those mother of all “leave me alone days.” I had already been preoccupied with a particular lingering situation that had no quick resolution, then I had a mildly disturbing conversation with a family member, then there was a moment of someone micromanaging two situations that had simple solutions and I was in a mildly foul mood to begin with because it was a Monday. (I am a proud Monday hater!)
Needless to say, I would have been better off staying in bed, phone off and the covers over my head.
Anyway, back to the story. On my way home, I was still allowing my mind to run rampant. I decided I would make a quick stop at the post office and my car was the first at the red light waiting for my left green turn signal. Keep in mind, I have made this left turn many times and I am very familiar with this area.
My light turned green and I was in the process of turning when my distracted mind went to fog. I went completely lost, confused and could not figure out where to turn even though I was staring at the road. I felt a moment of panic and quickly changed my mind and continue going straight. The cars facing me on the opposite side of the road must of thought I was about drive into them.
I made the right choice to continue and then made a safe U-turn to go back to the intended destination but I was much more focused. whew!
Full Mental Plate
That brief situation told me I was carrying a little too much in my head. I needed to start taking a few things off my plate again. Every time I go through and clear my head, there also seems to be something else that just takes up the empty room.
It is so easy to get caught up in our own world. We make situations bigger, more important or prominent than they truly are in real life. Some of us become so obsessive to the point we lose focus on the important things. We sweat the small, intermediate and big stuff all in the same way.
The moral of the story is that each of us get our own wake up calls to make changes. I had never experienced such a random moment of confusion (I don’t think I was having a true senile moment) but I was having an excessive distracted worry episode.
I know what I have to do for me. What do you have to do to minimize your worried mind?