A Picture Jogs the Memory

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com It is now three years into my caregiver life and I have come to hate the role. However, it is necessary and it fulfills a promise made to myself long before my parents needed assistance. Caregiving Woes I rarely disclose that I am my parents' power of attorney and their …

Daddy Issues

It is said that a girl's first exposure to the kind of man she will date or marry is influenced by her father. Therefore, it is safe to say that since birth, women have ongoing daddy issues. The presence or absence of a father has a significant impact for the heterosexual woman. Fathers can be …

I Am Forgetting To Smile

Forgetting to smile is not a new revelation to me. I thought I would share with the few who quietly acknowledge they are forgetting to smile. Here is what I mean. Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I have self-diagnosed with mild depression I struggle to find joy in anything (except my 2 month old cute …

The Sharp Tongue and the Right Tongue

You have met or know one or two people in your lives who believe their views of you are the best. They make no hesitation to say it in a harsh way. I use the word believe because another person's view of you may be a projection of his/her own circumstances versus the whole truth. …

Fear Mortality

The concept of death is closer to my mind since I took over the care of my parents. It’s not just about them but also about me. Most of us healthy individuals live life without thoughts of death. In our avoidance and arrogance, we assume that long life is promised. We are shocked beyond belief …

Her Fear Pushes My Faith

As I hear a once strong woman now struggle with the possibility of death, I am moved to do something outside my reach - have more faith. My heart breaks for my mother as she tries to manage her failing health and reconcile her faith with her reality. This is the woman who was the …

Who Advocates For You

When you are young, healthy and have no stress in the world, you rarely think about having to fight for yourself. As I become accustomed to my role as my parents' medical mouthpiece, I am starting to understand the importance of speaking up and asking questions. I also understand the importance of a good provider …

Control

The Janet Jackson song comes to mind 🎶🎤 Control. It's okay if you want to Youtube the song for nostalgia sake. So, a few things inspired this rambling. While I was on vacation, we had taken a water taxi to do a short excursion and on the way back, we saw police tapes. As the …

The Caregiver Struggle

In the pursuit to do the sensible thing, I have bitten off a lot more than I expected. In the journey to assist my aging parents, I quickly realized that I am no longer the assistant but the sole caregiver of their every simple to important needs. Before my parents accepted my offer to move …

Fear of Vulnerable Emotions

In my boredom and limited cable option, I started watching a Lifetime-esq love story. You know the type: Boy and girl have baggage, they meet, have chemistry, really like each other, girl keeps hiding and running away, boy keeps chasing and chasing until she finally gives in, they get married and the whole town comes …